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Argumentative Essay: The Best Learning Method

2007-07-06T02:43:00.001+07:00

"There is an inch different between success and failure, what we need to jump from failure to success is just have a grain of will" This is the statement that I really believe in.

I was a teaching assistant a year ago and in the same time I also was AIESEC Local Committee President in one of government university in Indonesia for one year. One year-experience has taught utter perspectives of the learning process, when the different methods of learnings had hit me in the same time.

When I was selected as teaching assistant I had big pride, because that what I wanted when I just entered university. It's a dream of dream from every students in the university.

I was trying the best for creating something new in the team because I was the coordinator for 4 other teaching assistants. I was overwhelmed with the title that I was a teaching assistant and I just follow what my lectures & the senior assistants said because they are the persons who had chosen me. I follow their methods because I was too busy with the new position, fill the bulletin board with teaching assistant profile, too busy with technical things. Thus the preparation was over and finally I had my first class with the most important thing was overlooked and I still didn't know what was it.

At the same time as President in AIESEC I really glad had a nice team but we face many challenges and obstacles, pretty different with the teaching assistant condition where we were supported with proper infrastructure and guidance. Apparently University support the lab with more infrastructure rather than AIESEC as student organization under university. In AIESEC as executive board team, we did many derelictions in trial error process and we evaluated them in weekly meetings. In the reality, I hadn't had ponderous feeling about them and we took them as personal & team learning process. Together along with the time I realize that everybody in the team try to share our experiences to all members and took it to the fore.

The different methods were in me and I didn't notice in the first 6 months why I got stressed when I had a class to teach or had teaching assistant meeting, even though I was being paid by university. I tried to reflect what I were doing and still didn't find the answer. It was really an intricate feeling.

By the time I realized that the method I followed in form of curriculum from lecturers and senior teaching assistant, had replaced all my ideas and creativity to learn from teaching process. It has changed the perspective of learning from willingness to be an obligation. Suddenly I got shocked because unconsciously I transferred all that negative perspective to university students that I responsible with, but it's an irrevocable moment. It's totally mundane but unforgivable because I handled more than 400 students under my coordination. I can't believe I did that huge dereliction.

I really thankful that I'm an AIESEC member that's why I write this essay as my dedication and try to reach that inch for being successful person by being responsible with the learning experience that I had.

This is the beginning for better education when every obligation become a will and not the vice versa.

Enjoy,

Aidy

HOUSE of PEACE

2007-06-19T01:49:00.000+07:00

On my journey I found something interesting. Let me tell you a secret from a short story of mine.

Shhh… Don’t tell everybody until they read this secret message by themselves.

(Whispering) One at a spring time… I was acquainted with a little girl, Flick. Ohh.. She is truly beautiful 7 years old girl with pink blush on her check. She is just an ordinary girl in small town and she lives with her mom and dad at a small wood house with little garden and some poultry and pigs. Oww ya she proudly told me that she had a small house for her three dolls, Curtin, the teddy bear with big necktie, Amy, first Barbie doll from beloved uncle at her birthday, and Rob, really cute hippo with big nose.

Ohh… Many years already passed since the last time I saw her. She had ever asked once to me with her big blue eyes full of passion, I guess she asked without expect any answer or a guess-answer. She told me she was really curious why her dad made a house as a present for last Christmas and put all her dolls at that small house. “Is it so necessary dolls have a house inside the house? Is it not warm enough?” I just had little smile on my face for her and asked myself about it also… I just smile because I had clear idea that she is too smart rather than stupid, so I decided to just keep silence and give my best smile to keep my emptiness for answering that kind of question.

From last two weeks after she asked to me, she always put attention to everybody in her neighborhood. Everyday since she was 4 years she was waiting and sitting on the bench near her father office in the district area 15 minutes before working hour was over to meet his father and walk home together. Her father is a post officer and work in post office near down town 5 days a week. Everyday, while she was waiting, she felt strange, when people just finish with their activities, people tend to go in a rush and said, (shouting) “Goodbye” or “See you tomorrow” with big smile, some of them directly go to their house, some of them spent their time on the bar in the corner of the street until late nice with loud life music, freely dancing, and laughing, feel free like home.

She asked to her dad about people who spent their time at that bar, “Dad, how come they can stay in that bar with loud music and people laughing, giggling, can they study for homework tomorrow? I can’t do my homework if it is too loud like that bar.”Flick, you are my great daughter, maybe for some people in that bar are being refreshed, and most of them like spend their time in that bar more than in their house, because people can’t get such of happiness in their house.

Suddenly she think about the happiness, yaaa… right her friends said there are many great things in their house that make them happy, but some of them said school is the best place for them to get happiness. She is trying to reach the conclusion; her chin was wrinkled, I guess she has not reached that conclusion yet.

She had a big question in her mind at the time, if people can get the happiness and feel of freedom and peace why they should have had a house for them? If the meaning a house is so diverse, she really want to find it for her friends, Curtin, Amy, and Rob, also for herself.

After two weeks still confuse with that question, she told her mom that she decided to left her house in the early Sunday morning with her lovely bicycle and big basket in front she carried a bottle of milk and some biscuits to explore the small city where they lives. Oww.. That day was quite chill. The road was empty. Her house is quite far from another house and city and still surrounded by field full of wild small flowers.

She start cycling and after 15 minutes she stopped because she saw a grey rabbit near a small dry drain, she was watching that rabbit ate leaves, she feel so happy and then she was trying to get closer to the rabbit but the rabbit ran away. She was chasing the rabbit but she can’t make it because the rabbit entered a small hole she can’t catch it, she guess it was a home for rabbit and she is happy to know a rabbit house.

She is cycling again and find a cross road, she turned to right because she can see a big yellow bus park near a huge tree. She stopped there and she got closer to the bus, in the door she saw a word ‘WELCOME’ then she knocked the bus’ door. “Bang, Bang, Bang”. Flick can see a big shadow from outside of the bus and suddenly….

To be continued…

More than a winner

2007-06-10T19:17:00.000+07:00

... These I have started to think to be a winner and I believe people is born to be more than a winner. Winning is about determination, willingness to pay, and sacrificing. I found the fact, these are what I got from house of life, freedom, and peace. These are real and my passion to be and share during the time I'm becoming...

We are winner and we believe...

Work harder is a grace
Determination is what we believe
Perfect is near and real
Passion & positive obsession are in us
- Passion conquer the physical barrier
- Passion conquer the mental barrier
The process teach us about winning and loosing. We are loosing and back to the arena with smile
Nothing is impossible
We see beyond things
We envision and believe
We start from small
We are being grateful with what we got

And what make us become more than a winner.. We were won, we are winning, we will win, and we are helping people to win more than what we can be!

WISDOM of BELIEVERS

2007-06-07T02:07:00.000+07:00

The rain dropped, all friends or I can say colleagues were gone home, MC planning just over. I was experiencing new life in the capital city where the rush never stopped, the warm wind blows with thick dust, where everything is here, you can find anything you want in the center of 20 million populations (I believe you can guess what kindda civilization it is).

Tonight, I just saw fear factor in a cable TV channel, yup I can describe, Jakarta pretty close like bugs in the jar are ready eaten by the fear factor contestant, so packed, full, smelly and “yummy”. For true I live there with all other living creatures. This is third day I spent all day long “alone” in the middle of busy environment anyway Thank GOD, He blessed me so I got a narrow health space for my living with world wide desk where I can open my desktop and find the balloon in the desktop said “YOU ARE CONNECTED” then suddenly my MSN automatically sign in for me and many time people who know me say hello or maybe a long time ago friend just found me and we were happy together to share our current live story. I just found out many of my friends already got married, lovely.

Many conversations passed and by, many virtual works that I did and fresh from the oven, finished.

These two days I’m thinking about my future. I’m dreaming big, huge, gigantism, or what ever the word is to describe that my dream bigger than my willingness to sleep again in the morning rather than wake up for jogging or doing sports. This thinking rots my brain, IT’s nothing wrong with dreaming, the doubt is about BELIEVING the dream.

“The most beautiful moment, when you ask and you get the truly answer”, like one of best friend and colleague said to me when I answered her question about how’s relationship in this world works, I answered her with some sentences, and “bang”, then her question died at the moment, It’s happened to me; got the answer for the doubtness is a gift.

Pray and personal reflection truly powerful to get what it called gift and get that strength back.

The wisdom is what some people looking for in their living time. It’s not for old people who are waiting to die, it’s for young people, and it’s about passion, about love, about life.

The true of wisdom can answer million of questions in mind and it brings peace without fear. It flows from us spread to the community, to the world.

The center of wisdom can be found through “RESPECT” which mean humble, or I can say die as individual. Tonight this hundreds of words flew away from a girl, who think she is “dying” now at dawn and should wake up with the spirit of ~DREAM BIG, AIM HIGH~; with no doubt I will back to my lovely home town, Bandung, with smile.

(Aidy is going to sleep right now… 6^th June late at night or you can say 7^thJune morning)

Campus Life and the Old Shoes

2007-04-10T14:30:00.000+07:00

Just few moment, two thing had been remarked. End of Campus life and The Old Shoes.

Left two story behind that stick with me for almost four years has never been easy.
Many reasons can be explained why I should feel sad with these two. Two different frame of thought that can't be distinguished by time.

The old shoes has been retired,

The campus life is over.

The evident of life. Scene should be changed very soon and something is pushing me back, the memories.

NOW it's time to change the scene. Click.

Good bye the Old shoes.

Back to nature

2007-03-25T23:46:00.000+07:00

Sunday, 25th March 2007. All EB and our trainee from Netherlands, Mark, went to Dago Pakar Conservative Forest until Maribaya for sunday sport and It's really fun. Dago Pakar Conservative Forest is a place to keep water supply and also there are two caves, Dutch Cave and Japanese cave. They had been used for storing amour and fortress in colonization era. There is path also that connect Bandung and Maribaya and a lot of people use it as a shortcut especially street seller. This road can be taken by walk, motorcycle, and bicycle. This path is about 5 km with really beatiful natu

Some of the EB never been there before and we had a lot of new experience such as see Omas Waterfall in Maribaya, ate honey after it was being taken from it nest, took picture with local children, etc.

IPM conference... leaders' dream

2007-03-22T22:20:00.000+07:00

Conference in AIESEC has never less than energy that I have, thus it give me strength and learn how to struggle"

What I believe in AIESEC, I see. What I see in AIESEC, I believe.

...really wonderful experience and I never regret I came to Egypt and see it. It can't be touched, it can't be imagined, it can't be replaced, it can't be forgotten.

That's IPM all about. It just can be experienced by ourself.

The passion, the patient, the intellegence, the respect, the inspiration, the leadership, the friendship, the unity, the dignity, the dedication, the sustainability, the power, the ambition, the power, the loyalty, the truth, the victory, the gentleness, the wisdom, the consciousness, the simplicity, the complexity, the resoluteness, the smartness, the fairness, the diversity, the commitment, the persistence...

What I believe, I saw... What I saw, I believe...

I didn't get what I had expected, I got more than my expectation. Unbelievable.

EXPERIENCING ONE AIESEC!

AP GN Premeeting

2007-03-09T02:27:00.000+07:00

I just came to one of university in Cairo. That was a place for GN premeeting and it's good place. NICE! I was confuse with many things. 2 years ago I joined APXLDS 2005 as new members and BOOM... I came again as MCP in another international conggress. It just big stone hit my head and be unconcious later, woke up then realized I was in Egypt and face a lot of foreigner...

Then the premeeting start with roll call then I started with record all I heard and I tried to captured all the things that I can understand. In this premeeting we was developing the plan for AIESEC in Asia Pacific Region start with indentified our problems, then our weakness as Growth Network. Ryan led us step by step to come up with great great OUTPUT to be brought to APXLDS 2007. I really saw the process to make the big things come true and impact ASIA!!!

I can't believe I was part of it. I try to convience myself that I was there! GREAT EXPERIENCE!

Then CC team also great! They always provided meals 5 times a day. Mostly in Egyptian food and tasted so strange in the beginning but it's OK. One of the food is this one. Until now I still remember the taste of it. STRANGE FOOD! there are rice, pasta, noddles, meat, and carrot! Oily!

For 2 days I can't stand with the weather because it was too cold for me and I was not feel well. I got cold. I just convience with me that I was strong and my sickness wasn't my focus. I should focus on my job! Just record record record as Damy said...

To be continued to the conference site...

IPM 2007 - day 0

2007-02-25T06:29:00.000+07:00

I just accomplished one of my resolution in this year. The journey that I dream of just start. It's really beautiful until I sat here in the middle of hotel cafe, Palmera Beach Resort, Red Sea, Egypt. 10 days ago, I came here without any expectation about what I will face. I went up from Bandung to Jakarta, was waitin for 6 hours in Cengkareng airport just because my parent told me to take travel bus from Bandung that just have the lattest at 4 p.m and my flight took off at 2.45 a.m. Time was running so sloww.... but it's OK. It's part of the journey. Then when I took off I planned to sleep but I couldn't, I don't know why... and The interesting part is when I looked through the plane' window about how beautiful the dessert is... Then I transited in Colombo for one hour then I just slept in the plane, many people came in, mostly srilankan people. I arrived in Kuwait quite early and woohh.. for the first time I felt "COOL SUNSHINE". There's sunshine, but it's freezing. GREAT FEELIN'... Then I was waiting there looked around in duty free shop, took free water, bought internet and calling card, called my dad, "everything gonna be alright", I said to my self. One thing that I amazed, Kuwait people really look nice, handsome guys, beautiful women with long dresses... and they God damn rich. I felt so poor there... even Mc Donald breakfast so expensive. Then I arrived in Cairo International Airport. There was something wrong happened to their system and around 1000 people was waiting for their passport. It's so chaotic, they shouted, got angry, and I should wait also for 2 hours until I got my passport back. So damn bad! Then I just went out, there's IPM CC picked delegates up. I just met Mino, Vincent ohhh... miss them so much... It's a great feelin being in Egypt after 30 hours..

Nice melody. Amie Namuro "Baby don't cry"

2007-02-21T23:57:00.000+07:00

Long road Padang - Lembah Anai - Maninjau - Bukit tinggi - Payakumbuh

2007-02-13T17:17:00.000+07:00

Start a DAY without stop saying.. BEAUTIFUL!

After exhausted conference. Thank's to Tatha, Rio (bombye), Kahlil, to arrange REALLY GREAT trip for UP delegates. 6 am. I was being picked up by Kahlil from the venue. Honestly It's so tired coz' I slept in 4.00 in the morning to chat with Edja and Irma. Owww... SO FUCKING TIRED! hahaha..

I arrived in Bombye house then I took a bath after full three days I didn't take a bath! hahah... Fiuh I also borrowed Imed T-SHIRT since no clean t-shirt in ma bag. Bombye threated us as special guests. He threated us for our breakfast "LONTONG KARI PADANG" so nice meal. Then we start our JOURNEY!! Woow.. so exited.

"PARADISE" BEACH

I sat at the front, next to Khalil as our driver of the day, then we just picked girls UP delegates in one of gas station, coz' they lived in Mira's house. After we fill the car and we got ready for our trip.
The OC brought us to beautiful beach, quite far, around 30 minutes from gas station and in the way there we saw many beautiful scenaries.. fresh air, sounds of waves, and many coral mountains, friends laughs, chat each others, heat of our body and wind blew touch our faces when we open car' windows... feel the nature taste. Great feelin' to be remembered.

Yeahh... we arrive on the beach!! wooowww... we found many new things that we can't see in our city. Traditional ship, three cute dogs, and cows. I just chat with some members about our Taiwanese friends that really want to introduce us to her country lives. I thought this one is more "VILLAGERS" than taiwanese talked about. Hahaaa.. and also the members agree with me. We took so many photos and felt the sea water on our feet, jumped on the smooth sand, collect many coral and unexpectedly we got "KUMANG", Sea animals. SO cute.... after we engage with sea atmosphere then we continued our trip to lembah anai..

LEMBAH ANAI
I decided to sat at the back, coz' I felt soooo sleepy. I just know Karin and David found the kumangs and play with them took the photo. But I think they have already in HEAVEN now. It's so cute with their "WHITE HOUSE" hahaha... SO TIRED then I just go sleep without nobody know me sleep. After they noticed that I got slept at the back, they took my photo! Lembah Anai quite far, I think 35-40 minutes from the beach and I don't know nothing until somebody made me woke up and we just arrived in Lembah Anai.

I didn't have any idea about Lembah Anai and what it will be looked like. I just know it as beautiful place and one of Padang Landmark. Hmmm.. I just walked with all members without bring anything. Ohh.. from far away we met other AIESECers from other LC that join post tour with other OCs. Hohoho... HI AIESECCCC!!!!
After shaked their hand, I felt their body so fresh. Still don't know why.... Then After I saw the ANAI with my own eyes... then I know the answer. The Lembah ANAI is waterfall near the street we can reach it and get into it. SO FRESHFULL. We roll our pants and put our feet in to the water. Hiii... the water so cold and fresh.. I thought to swim but I didn't bring any clothes (I'll do it next time! I promise to my self)

LUNCH TIME!!
DUDUDU... I thought Padang food will be expensive and hot again, but this time I met really GREAT CUCO PADANG food in our way to Maninjau! Hardly explain I ate ayam pop, jengkol, and daun singkong! hahah.. COOL! But After that I went to bathroom for ***. hahah....
In the end we just pay around $2/person. So cheap. I saw this restaurant had ever been visited by our President Yudoyono and also has several achievements. Ckckck... We love you LO we do!!!

MANINJAU
We got lost from restaurant to the Maninjau... I don't know why Kahlil can get lost. But finally we can find Maninjau without find other cars (we are separated in two cars). Kahlil and all members decided to stop in WARUNG. Eihh.. we saw there's a monkey and three dogs. I thought the monkey so cute and also I can touch it. Everybody touch and hug it. After 5 minutes the monkey became stressful and bite me. fufu... luckily I wore jacket. DAMMIT!
We were trying to contact people in other car but we can't get any signal. Luckily somebody was called by Tatha and they told us to get closer to Maninjau. Great SCENARY and it's like HEAVEN!!!!! We order coffee in the bar and also hot milk! we drank and chit chat with Mira and Kahlil also Bombye about HOW BEAUTIFUL PADANG IS!
Then as usually WILLY, TATHA, IMED always act as sexy couples... wondering they are in their honey moon...

BUKIT TINGGI
We arrive in Bukit tinggi at 5.30, one of leisure place in Sumatra. It's great city with JAM GADANG as its landmark. I think it's unique coz' it was built in 18th century and has been renovated three times. The uniqueness from this landmark that the number 4 in its clock is different romans, it's not used IV but IIII. We also met again with many AIESECers here and shout HI AIESEC loudly from inside of car. Then many people see us as annoying stranger. hahaha... After we bought some souvenirs and I bought shirt to change coz' I have no more, we continue the journey that we CALLED, "TURN TO THE RIGHT, AND STRAIT!" we will arrived then in PAYAKUMBUH! AH! The Willie's family was waiting for us for DURIAN PARTY for willie' durian tree back side of his house in his lovely HOMETOWN!

GREAT JOURNEY!

Recaptured! Reloaded! National Conference III Padang!

2007-02-13T11:03:00.000+07:00

HIT BANG HIT BANG! Brain: could ya deliver the message to the fingers.. type all memories that I can't keep no more because they are too many and too beautiful. It's too naif if I just keep it bymaself in my tiny cells. Fingers: Glad to receive it... just right know I express all your idea by touching the keypad on Aidy's laptop.

DAY 0
many challenges that UP delegates faced in the day we came to Padang. Our fundraising product is failed and we can't bring it here, Aidy had booked wrong schedule for Tatha tickets, then UP delegates lost 3 mobile phones because we just arrived in Padang, stay in Imam' place and we forgot to lock the door. WHAT KIND OF STUPIDITY!!!! Aidy was preparing her booklet and all girl delegates complaining about Padang weather. HOT HOT HOT!

DAY 1
Huaa.. everybody so happy to meet each others since all AIESEC Indonesia members didn't see each other for 3 months. All delegates separated into funtional meeting, then National Conference opened with great appreciation, then Aidy start to speech for MCP candidacy and start Q&A with no proper preparation. This conference has beautiful togetherness...

Aidy: Wait wait... Narator let me explain by ma self...

Narator: SHOOT!

Aidy: Well, I heard many problems and challenges that make me shocked! Then I got blurry with my election coz' I played two roles as MCP candidate and LCP also... (I should to learn play with 2 roles honestly!!) I just remember all delegates got excited then we just slept 2-3 hours in the first day, but we can woke up still with high passion.

DAY 2
(Aidy Still...) What a day! I failed in the Q&A session then I should start to make it better in the 2nd day. TODAY all session made me realized what really happened with AIESEC Indonesia also what we will face futher if MC VP team get elected. I just remember when all candidates can't enter the plenary room and we were waiting in fundraising corner called "LAPAU ETEK" (Minang language means: AUNTY STORE). In this place I met great, fully passion OC, her name is Mega. Truly Mega inspired me to have marketing spirit and her flexibility made me amaze! hahaha...

DAY 3
I was chatting with many people and getting fun beside all my burden as MCP candidate but truly it help me to engage with the situation also Prepare prepare!!! for 2nd round I should be better now I was trying to encourage many people go for election! But nobody want! Then I just reapply and do my best! I was trying to perform as Aidy then I share who is me from the beginning... where I come from.. from what kind of situation...

DAY 4
OOOHHH... finally all MC team and LCP can gathered as family to talk personally! Make it the best part of this NATIONAL CONFERENCE!!! SO BEAUTIFUL EXPERIENCE!!! then We are getting late to come to EXTERNAL DINNER coz' we were drowning in the AWKWARD atmosphere! arrrgghh... (Grace, better you hold the stick then we can fundraising in the cross streeT, hahahaha.... JK!)

External dinner make me amaze, coz' AIESEC in Andalas University can show us their powerful external exposure. We can have dinner in Governor house. Cool! All LC sent their representatives to sing a song. We just brought the AIESEC spirit and let world know about our existance and our impact. Huhauhuaha... all people get dressed and so beautiful with traditional gawn and boyz with Batik shirt! HUWEEEE... GORGEOUS!!
When we feel as one of big family and there's a connection between us.. never let it go! feel it, touch it, and keep it!

DAY 5
Ohh... and in the end of the conference so many memories happened until I can't explain it again to the world coz' it's to many! Hmm.. as far I can remember I just hectic all day long for MC VP selection Panel. Edja and Irma as MC VP ER and MC VP F. Cool! Even I hadn't taken a bath for 3 days. ahahah...Can you imagine that! And I well known as people who never take a bath during conference. hahahaah... It's OK as long my job and role can be fulfilled! Yeah! In the end of conference I announced the MC VP position. Edja were elected as MC VP ER and Irma as MC VP Finance. We should celebrate it together by extending the conference for get know each other and set the general expectation!

I LOVE AIESEC INDONESIA BIG FAMILY!!!
BAPISAH BUKANNYA BACARAI!

The Last Class

2007-01-18T22:07:00.000+07:00

Nine month ago, when I applied for teaching asisstant, I wondered how to teach other people with knowledge that I got in 6 semesters at university. Then I challenge myself to get involve in this unique life race...
3..2..1.. GO!

The first challenge! Selection test with high level of difficulties and other university FINAL TEST in the same time. (I passed it, YEAH!)
again.. I had been interviewed by lecturers and this is my first presentation in front of three lecturers... really no have idea what I presented in front of them, What's that all about.. Forgot it already! (The important thing is I passed, yeehaa..)

Somehow the jury let me joined the real race, I enter the gear, pushed the pedal... and began the race..
130 km/hours I saw my speedometer..

Then 2nd, 3rd, or what ever the number, the other challenges came on my way, and stroke on the lap... I became the cordinator for the team, the lecturers decided me to be without let me knows. Felt so happy but really didn't know what I should say happy or what (I mean right know!)

Then hundredth challenges until the last lap.. it's never ending challenge. I had never wondered before it has become a great experience. Tough. It's really need commitment, a lot of sacrifices, and patient.. faced a lot of difficulties with not good campus administration, conflict on the team, taught night class, bored to gave mark for students answer sheet and thousand of work as teaching asisstant cordinator.. anyway I earned money by myself.. (I like this one! hehe.. yup the salary a month enough to survive for 4 days as human, it's great! I'm a survivor, Yeah!)

From all I passed, I will miss all moments... Yeah, I will... The moment when everybody did the case, and still busy to keep their calculator on hand, papers, and pencase (I think it's uncomfortable because the table is too small for all kindda stuff). The moment when I was waiting all student jot down the answer in their answer sheet without certain point in their head. The moment when I heard my lecturer thaught in the next class. The moment when I really confused with material that I should teach to my student (I was not well prepared and panic.. hahah..). The moment when I was sick and I should attend the class. The moment when I rearranged my locker and my team mate' locker because it's too mess. The moment when I was telling the wrong answer to my students. hauhauha... they became confuse. I will really miss all of themm...

hmm... I think I miss them now, when I'm writing this blog.

Time passed by.... minutes by minutes, It has already nine months...

Time lead me to the end.

Yesterday is the last class.. I can't believe I should end this. I ended other life race challenge..

With love,

I dedicated this to all my students..
I love you, all!

PS: Sorry for wrong answer and for bad mark!

Random Inspiration ingredients

2007-01-17T12:29:00.000+07:00

..solitude.. latitude.. smooth expression of mood.. blue ocean waves.. gentle wind touch our chick.. blow our hair.. soft sand burry our toes.. small mint candy melt on mouth.. coconut tree sensation.. cold water hit our throat..
sound of water on the river.. warm sunshine.. chirp of birds.. merry fish.. sun ray reflection on the water surface.. piece sweet bread.. hot chocolate with cinamon granule..
under moon light.. heat charcoal.. sprinkling fire.. silent dance.. jingle of iron.. thousand stars.. soulmates.. gentle kiss on smooth lips..
..sun ray breakthrough sea surface.. deep blue sea.. thousand fish.. coral beauty.. slow moves.. water dance..
flower garden.. pine leaf fragant in the dawn.. stain of dew..warm blanket... friend's chatter.. slightly air on our lungs.. someone we love..

Place of thousand inspiration, feel the EARTH..

any other sensation??

KAOSHIUNG: My friends' Lovely Home Town When I se...

2007-01-15T14:17:00.000+07:00

KAOSHIUNG: My friends' Lovely Home Town

When I search picture in google about KAOSHIUNG. Just want to know what it's look like.. Waoo. It's beautiful! I never imagine before. Just remember when Jenny and Allen arguing about KAOSHIUNG. It's a funny discussion when they act and show me why people from Taipei and Kaoshiung completely different and different opinion about KAOSHIUNG from local people and people from Taipei live in KAOSHIUNG! From all argument I just see this city as romantic city with slow rythm of life, good scenary and mix between traditional & modern way of thinking and attitude. IT'S GREAT FOR LIVING!
Since a month ago I stayed tune in my desktop for my work that can be done without computer, I just chat almost every night with friends from Taiwan (sorry to Allen & BIG FEET to bother you hehe...) because there's nobody online after 12 at midnight and I tried to relieve a moment in the middle of my "VIRTUAL" work, share feelin' and daily life. Yeah honestly I want to go there but still not sure. I really want to know what happened in other country living. It's interesting and amusing!
I talked to Emily last night, she really had good friendship with one of her friend and she is in Taipei right now just for say good bye to her friend in the airport. SO SWEET! haha.. I just tell her I really hope have like one like that in my life and I can't find one until now. (NOT SO DEEP LIKE THAT I MEAN!) And I told her, as the only child, I feel so lonely sometime and I also always stay together with my parent with my own future goals. I have committed to it until this minutes and many of things that I sacrificed to achieve my dream.
Thank's to Emily she said want to be my MSN sister hahaha... so funny! Another VIRTUAL thing that we can create. I really appriciate it.
Anyway I really want to experience to WALK BESIDE THIS RIVER WITH MY FRIEND and keep in silence, just like one of Taiwan Friend said in her blog. It's interesting...

HOPE I CAN EXPLORE THE CITY AND KNOW What's COUNTRY SIDE live from Allen version.

FUTURE GOAL! Change agent! I just wondering what ...

2007-01-15T11:16:00.002+07:00

FUTURE GOAL! Change agent!

I just wondering what I can do with uncomfortable situation that I feel with my country. I'm change agent.What should I do? I must do something.
Last night I was wondering before I slept about 15 minutes, remind again what is my future goals, my dream that I shared with my VPs. So great moment at that time we shared our dream. Vita really confuse what she want to be and she just said want to build carreer in entertainment industry or Bank Indonesia. Imed really want to be UNILEVER CEO, Rista really want to work in Bank Indonesia (or being house wife with Mr. B? Still don't know), also Wiena really want to be Bank Indonesia Deputi, David really want to be world leader and stay in Russia, Siska she said still confuse than she also want to work in Bank Indonesia, Willi also. Then I said I really want to be minister of trade and industry... I just smile on my bed and yeah it's possible. What I must to do just persistent with my goal. It's tough to said that now. What I'm facing right now, put a lot of pressure and make me "A LITTLE" bit stress. I should re-energize myself with high level of spirit and I less interact with people physically. I'm trying to find the way to be internally motivated again and again. Now my work has been finished 70% and still 30% must be completed less than a week. With sitting in front of my desktop everyday, every hours, Can you imagine what kind of feeling that you will have. (Burning head, tired eyes, stiff body, even I feel my cheek stiff also, leg muscle decreasing, unbalance when stand up). Yeah, I believe this challenging situation, what I sacrifice in my life won't be fruitless.

I recall my dream and I believe in my heart it will happened to me, with my commitment and consistency. MY DREAM COME TRUE clearer, clearer.. when I recall back every time in my life.

YA. I'm going to that way and I will give my POSITIVE contribution for my country!
AIESEC International said Everyday start today! I prefer ANYTIME start NOW!

I BELIEVE! I BELIEVE!

IRONIC REPUBLIC: Indonesia TODAY! In the begining...

2007-01-14T13:41:00.000+07:00

IRONIC REPUBLIC: Indonesia TODAY!

In the begining of this ironic story, I want to explain, I don't have any purpose to discredit my country. I love my country, even I'm an Indonesia-Chinese. I really concern with this condition and see this phenomena from little part of thousand perspectives.

Indonesia as country of IRONIC. In this country strange things happened everyday and invite thousand of questions in my head, (maybe in people head too, or maybe not because they become usual with strange things in this COUNTRY).
These are some fact that I think totally strange:
1. In this country, with full of natural resources, 23,63 million people are dying because of hunger
2. Top 40 richest people in Indonesia have U$22,770,000,000 and there are people with spending less than U$4/month
3. More than 60 million people use mobile phone from total citizen 250 million people and thousand of villages haven't gotten electricity yet
4. There are just 2% internet users from total citizen and 80% from total users, use internet for porn and online games
5. Hundreds of real estate has been build everyday and thousand of slum area has been devastated
6. Physic Wod Olimpiad winner is from Indonesia and many schools in sub urban area collapsed because not enough fund to renovate
7. Many times flood sweeped down some of location in Indonesia and in the same time the farmers complaint because their harvest failed because of dryness
8. Hundreds of Starbucks outlet in Indonesia and many children spend their money for meal/week with the same price as glass of cappuchino in Starbucks
9. With 16.677 islands in Indonesia. Indonesia still import salt from other country
10 Million hectares forest in Indonesia, Indonesia still need import wood from Myanmar, US, Costa rica
11. Indonesia as one of religious country in the world, and still hundreds people died everyday because of sadistic act
12. Million of windows shopper use their spare time search for new products for fun, and million of people seek recycle product to be sold as their primary job

What do you think? Ironic isn't it?

STRUGGLE!!!! For many days (around 10 days) I stru...

2007-01-13T14:08:00.000+07:00

STRUGGLE!!!!

For many days (around 10 days) I struggle with works that should be conquer in front of computer (there are no other way for these work) RESEARCH, BOOKLET, PLAN TOOLKIT, Transition preparation, I felt my soul has been trapped in this 12 inches monitor and 3x4 meter square (my bedroom and also "office" for me). Even I just met and talked with 4 people yesterday. Less communication, less interaction. BEING TECHNOLOGY AND ACADEMIC VICTIM. How could this happened to me?? (That's my first FLASH in my HEAD).
The last two days, Ali & david support me by posting their comment. Thank's a lot. Last night I chat with Allen about my life, her life. She said my lifestyle is so bored. Yeah.. I admitted, in the moment I felt so tired and just wanna pass that day with go to sleep, but I decide to find other poeple to talk and just sit next to other people for the rest of my day. I think think and think about "CHALLENGE" that I face these days really tough; the level of bored has been increased and accumulated..
Today I saw my self back to my laptop, face this screen again, start to check and review my research, yeah a lot of PRESSURE. I just remember one thing that always I keep in my heart "PRESSURE WILL GIVE PEOPLE HIGH LEVEL OF DEVELOPMENT". I just believe I will STILL STAND in any kind of situation. I WILL CONQUER IT!!
I believe, I promise to myself this year I will start to explore the world and begin my journey, then I should have full of passion to end current works.

I WILL BEGIN, DO and END this with full of PASSION!

One Step Ahead to Striving for Excellence!

WAIT for NothinG! I just woke up at 7.30 and oawh...

2007-01-11T14:14:00.000+07:00

WAIT for NothinG!

I just woke up at 7.30 and oawhh.. so heavy to open my eyes, got down from bed, grabbed towel and took shower.. brrrhh... Finally I just ate a slice of bread with butter then went to campus for my appointment at 8.30. I just wait for my lecture because he said to meet him today at 8.30. So hard to move and open my eyes then I just sat on the couch in the corner, WAIT.... WAIT... 2 minutes, 10 minutes, 20 minutes then I lied on the couch.. I felt sleep with my THICK TEXT BOOK as my "LOVELY" pillow. (lovely to change "HARD") This pillow made my ear feelin' "under preassure" between the pillow and my head. Then my friend came and asked the same lecturer.. He didn't came yet, It's already 9.40 SO SHIT! I almost wait and sleep for one hour. GOD DAMMIT! What ever.. TODAY really NOT COMFORTABLE. I came home at 12.30 and there are few people fix the floor at the 3rd floor... SO NOISSSYYYY... I CAN'T GET REST!!!! I need rest! I need rest!

I said to my brain, "STOP!" It has already four a...

2007-01-11T14:10:00.000+07:00

I said to my brain, "STOP!"

It has already four am in the morning when I post this blog. Hmm… I’m lying on my lovely bed and there’s typhoon in my head. I just can’t stop thinking about everything. Maybe it because I work all day long without stop thinking then when I want to stop it, my brain said “NO”. I’m listening to some mandarin songs and Indonesian songs. I still can't sleep. I have meeting with my lecturer tomorrow at 8.30 am. I think I won’t sleep now until 7.30…. So heavy living… doin’ rountine task without proper rest! It’s totally different with conference or occasion that usually took my energy a lot… its different situation when people energy gathered and we kept the spirit… I should finish this kindda monotone life soon. What a sick living!

Good bye CUM LAUDE! Since I struggle hard to get ...

2007-01-10T14:02:00.000+07:00

Good bye CUM LAUDE!

Since I struggle hard to get first honor in my university I have great passion to finish it because I know I will get other achievement. Today I know that I can't get it because my council is in the new semester that make me registered more than 4,5 years in campus and I can't get this. Anyway I really sad but I will keep struggle hard to finish it. I also will put more energy for the election in 31st January 2007. I don't know what will happened next. What I know now is doing the best in every part of mylife.
GOD HELP MY WAY!

HEART ATTACK! I have two times heart attack TODAY...

2007-01-09T21:49:00.000+07:00

HEART ATTACK!

I have two times heart attack TODAY!

FIRST HEART ATTACK
Since I dare Allen and myself to study and work more until dawn, I woke up with really slow and shallow heart beat. Arggh... so tortured. I decided to drink a glass of coffee, very good taste of carrebian nut coffee. I didn't late for my class even I entered wrong class, because they hadn't finished the morning class, I just entered and went out after I know I was wrong. In the class my heart beated so terribly without support from other organ so It felt hurt. Oww.. dammit! That's the first attack!
SECOND HEART ATTACK
I just came home at 9.30 pm after finished teach in my campus then I just heard the radio on my car. It was about match lovers topics, I just realized I have nobody right now. I'm SINGLE TERRIBLY BUSY WOMAN! Oh my GOD. Then my heart has been attacked again this time.. fufufu... hiks.. SO SAD!

FOUND My PARKING TICKET after I lost it and paid ...

2007-01-08T17:31:00.000+07:00

FOUND My PARKING TICKET

after I lost it and paid for it about $1.2 because I lost it, then I just found it in the hidden part of my BAG! Dammit, I should learning to find until I get detailed. Hmm.. SO SAD! But by the way.. today I also invite ASISSTANT team members to come for final recapitulation but just 2 people came! fufuf... then I should arrange again the meeting tommorow and I like before work alone. Hmm... It's kindda different work with AIESECers and non AIESECers. Terrible! Today is just 20 days to my final research deadline I just wrote one paragraph haha.. I think I should write at least 8 page to make it finish in 20 days. For MCP booklet there are still 22 questions to go and they are quite challenging, also want to make really good national and local plan structure to make it better.. Come on Aidy YOU CAN!

POLIGAMI OR POLIANDRI: It's Up to You! sudah lam...

2007-01-02T19:44:00.000+07:00

POLIGAMI OR POLIANDRI: It's Up to You!

sudah lamanya tidak ngeposting dalam bahasa... hmmm.. ini jokes yang cukup menghibur dari milist kampus...

Never THINK ABOUT IT after you read it!

"Menurut daku, yang diperlukan oleh seorang anak bukanlah siapakah lelaki yang menyumbangkan seciprat sperma untuk membuat dirinya, tapi siapakah yang berperan sebagai sosok seorang ayah sesungguhnya dalam pertumbuhannya. Justru dengan sistem 4 ayah 1 ibu, anak-anak diuntungkan karena lebih banyak yang melindungi mereka jika ada apa-apa. Bahkan mungkin ada baiknya jika ke-empat ayah tersebut mengatur shift kerja mereka sehingga setidaknya ada 1 ayah yang selalu berjaga di rumah setiap saat. Menjaga keluarga dari marabahaya. (Misal: Kalau ada perampok yang masuk rumah, setidaknya ada seorang lelaki dewasa yang akan melindungi ibu dan anak-anaknya)

Selain itu, 4 ayah berarti adanya 4 tulang punggung keluarga. (EMPAT saudara-saudara! ! E-M-P-A-T!! bukan 1 atau 2 atau 3, tapi EMPAT sumber pemasukan keluarga!!) Jadi secara keseluruhan, kesejahteraan keluarga menjadi lebih baik.

Biaya perawatan anakpun lebih terjamin. Jika yang 1 terkena PHK, masih ada 3 lainnya yang bekerja. Tentunya yang terkena PHK itu juga akan merasa gengsi dan malu terhadap 3 suami lainnya, sehingga ia akan berusaha mendapatkan kerja secepatnya.

Poliandri juga baik untuk mengurangi jumlah penduduk. Sebab, walaupun ada 4 pejantan
yang siap membuahi, tapi pabrik anaknya cuma 1!! Jadinya ya dalam jangka panjang akan
mengurangi jumlah penduduk dan anak-anak yang dibuat pun diharapkan lebih "berkualitas" .
(Ya itulah, karena biaya perawatan anak datang dari 4 sumber pemasukan)
Intinya: turunkan kuantitas, naikkan kualitas!!

Kalau poligami bisa mengakibatkan persaingan di antara para istri dan anak-anaknya, poliandri mungkin bisa memberikan efek perdamaian. Sebab pada saat seorang anak tidak jelas siapa ayahnya (Pokoknya di antara 4 itu! Eh, diluar 4 itu juga bisa ding), maka para ayah akan tetap memberikan perhatian kepada si anak. Masing-masing ayah akan menganggap anak tersebut adalah anaknya. (Kalau di poligamikan, bisa ada resiko setiap anak membangga-banggakan ibunya doang dan menjelekkan ibu dari anak yang lain)

Para ayah tersebut punya teman untuk ngobrol malam-malam, teman untuk main catur, main panco (Kalau mau juga bisa buat turnamen kecil-kecilan) ataupun main kartu (Pas 4 orang! Cocok buat maen capsa, maen mahjong juga bisa). Nonton bola di rumah pun menjadi lebih semarak!

Dengan sistem 4 suami pula para pria bisa belajar menekan rasa egoisnya dengan saling berbagi,
bertoleransi dan bersabar. Ingat, Tuhan suka orang sabar.

Rewelnya istri pun menjadi lebih berkurang. Bayangkan jika seorang suami punya 4 istri. Maka dalam 24 jam, akan ada 4 orang istri yang berpotensi untuk mengomel dan mengeluh di kuping suami. Tapi JIKA 4 suami 1 istri, maka rata-rata kemungkinan masing-masing suami di-rese- in istri adalah maksimal 6 jam sehari. (Dengan asumsi ngawur bahwa sang istri mengomel selama 24 jam non-stop)

Sudah menjadi pengetahuan umum pula jika umur harapan hidup pria lebih pendek. Jadi, setidaknya jika seorang suami mati, sang istri tidak akan langsung menjadi janda, masih ada 3 orang suami yang menemani. Sementara jika sang istri yang mati, maka para suami bisa memilih untuk segera kawin lagi atau menjomblo. (Point bebek di sini: Kalau seorang wanita menjadi janda, maka ia lebih sulit untuk mencari suami daripada seorang duda mencari istri)

Sekarang mari kita tinjau dari sudut seksualitas. Sudah menjadi keluhan umum di rubrik konsultasi kalau banyak wanita gagal mencapai orgasme karena suami cepat selesai atau tidur begitu saja setelah mencapai puncak. Padahal pada umumnya, wanita itu lebih lambat panas daripada pria.

Nah. dengan adanya 4 suami, maka suami-suami tersebut bisa ber- estafet ria. Jika istri lambat panas dan blum panas-panas juga, maka jangan kuatir, masih ada rekan anda yang akan meneruskan perjuangan membawa istri menuju ke puncak kenikmatan. (Menuju puncak, gemilang cahaya, mengukir cinta, SEJUTA RASA.. Kyaaaaaaa.!!)

Poliandri secara sekilas juga sesuai dengan kodrat seks manusia. Laki-laki pada umumnya hanya dapat orgasme 1 kali lalu keabisan tenaga, sementara wanita bisa orgasme berkali-kali, bahkan organ seksualnyapun tidak usah membutuhkan persiapan terlalu banyak seperti halnya laki-laki. (Kan harus nungguin Joy-sticknya berdiri dulu.)

Jika wanita berhalangan pun (Entah apapun alasannya) laki-laki bisa dengan mudah swalayan karena organ seksnya terbuka dan menggantung di luar tubuh. (Tidak seperti perempuan yang organnya lebih tersembunyi, jadi lebih ribet kalau mau swalayan)

Akhir kata, saya menyimpulkan (lagi-lagi) secara SEPIHAK bahwa poliandri "lebih baik" daripada poligami." Nah loh ...........

Ada pepatah mengatakan ;

"Laki2 seperti botol coca cola : biar isi berceceran dimana2 yang penting botol dipulangin".

"Perempuan seperti kulkas : biarpun gak kemana2, tapi dpt menyimpan beberapa botol sekaligus di dalam nya".

Em@il from "LONG TIME NO SEE" Friend! This is an ...

2007-01-02T19:08:00.000+07:00

Em@il from "LONG TIME NO SEE" Friend!

This is an email from Adrian Vargas my great friend and bother from Mexico to all AIESECers in Indonesia. He was MC VP Finance for AIESEC Indonesia 2005/06. He attached great message that made me reflect again what happened with this life lately!

Replied email from Aidy:
owww... adrian so sweet. I just remember the first time we met in strategic planning meeting. You were serious with Grace chat about something that I don't understand and I really confuse why the MC office so strange. It wasn't like my expectation before. But truly and honestly I was great moment to spend with YOU, Grace, Ali, Riska, Ratih. Owww.. I knew your secret, that you think Ratih is cute. hahah... And I really miss you a lot. Thank's also for your email. It's beautiful and I'll foward it to my LC members that know you. For right now, I'm applying as MCP Indonesia, hope my contribution can give positive impact for AIESEC Indonesia. P.S: I attached our photo as Strategic Planning Meeting Team!

Hugs'

Aidy

----- Original Message ----
From: Adrian
To: adrianvg_56@yahoo.com.mx
Sent: Tuesday, January 2, 2007 2:27:36 PM
Subject: SELAMAT TAHUN BARU!!

Dear Indonesian Family;

After six months I left Indonesia , I am still missing the food, the traffic jam, the weather, everything and specially YOU!

My stay in Indonesia gave me a lot of experiences that thought me to be a better human being, to be a better sentient being with the facts around the world, to love to any person around the world and fight for achieving my dreams and to help the other to achieve their dreams. This year was amazing, a lot of challenges, successful activities, etc, I learned a lot, but all of this was because you was there, beside me. I never will forgot this year 2006.

From my heart:

“WITH THE BEST WISHES FOR A WONDERFUL, BRIGHT AND

PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR”

“HAPPY NEW YEAR”

“SELAMAT TAHUN BARU”

“FELIZ AÑO NUEVO”

Also, I want to share this letter of George Carlin (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/George_Carlin) which was written to his deceased wife.

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WHO WILL CARE

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but
shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more,
but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and
smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees
but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less
wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little,
drive to fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up tired, read too
seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk
too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to
our life not life to our years. We've been all the way to the moon and
back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We
conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but
not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom,
but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but
accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more
computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but
we communicate less and less.

These are times of fast food and slow digestion, big men and small
character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are days of two
incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days
of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands,
overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to
kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in
the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a
time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going
to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because
that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the
only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will
not be there again.

Remember, to say, " I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but
most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes
from deep inside of you.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious
thoughts in your mind.

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments
that take our breath away.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER: IF YOU DON'T SHARE THIS WHO WILL CARE.

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Adrian Vargas

MCVP Finance 05-06

Indonesian - Mexican Friend